i don't know what to do

hhaha i just can laughed remember all the moment with him,i wanna cry , i wanna laugh , and i wanna screaming , he make me crazy with his attitude , sometimes he look so charming but sometimes he look so thrilling,
he make me happy but his always too make me sad :( i don't know what to do hahha i love him but i hate too because he always make me crying , but without him i'am so loneliness , sometimes if i hate him i wanna be missing his self , i really miss with his self the past time :( now i feel bored with him , averyday he just arrange my self and i don't like hi do it to me , :( my dear i don't know what to dooooooo i'am so confused , i wanna break  but i wan't make your broke with my choose :( and i wan't if i must feel so sad with you'r attitude
mr.fadhil you look so freak :( and i'am so scarry with you'r self now ,, please let me up from you'r world i love you so much but i don't like with you'r attitude now :( hmmm i miss him may be i wanna said break to him , give me way god :) i need you'r helped.